Did I just get lucky and it’s all rigged?

I was trading a funded $10 million account and between September and the middle of October I made more than $200k USD as my profit share. Then I burned my account. So I thought I'll just start another challenge and pass it and get right back on track, right? Nope. I just keep getting burned and I've spent way too much on new challenges to keep trying and failing. Did I just get lucky that one time? Will I ever make it like that again? Is it rigged and somehow the prop firm is trading against me since they have the order book? Just feeling completely exhausted and down now.